Not even you and all your love could bring me down

Feeling very loving towards my dad and also sad that he’s doing his first weekly radio show tomorrow and I won’t be able to listen/watch because my laptop has been killed by the kittens. Well I’ve bought him presents this year and I’m going to make him little dinosaur shaped cakes tomorrow so that’s alright, I’ll try and be nice too even though my anxiety is getting a bit too much again. I still think I’m hating him more and more for moving away, but we’re getting on well recently anyway so it’s fine, Megan feelings are unimportant and irrational. I should go to bed but I feel fuzzy and I got drunk earlier but I took painkillers because vodka didn’t help with pain so now my tummybox hurts. I’ll just stay on the sofa thinking scary thoughts until the morning perhaps.